May be more than just the doldrums

It sound like you would be doing yourself a big favor by making an appointment with a mental health counselor, social worker or psychologist.  General malaise and apathy to life can be a sign of a serious problem. 

Also, a visit with your primary care physician for a general physical check up would be beneficial.  Some medical conditions can result in less than pleasant emotional feelings.

Taking good care of yourself with appropriate relaxation and leisure activities is an important part of life and our emotional health.

Wherever you begin, get started soon!